Staying in character with your own brain navigating time beyond your faith is always a struggle, called bi polar disorder. Gender alive vs rank of one's character on a new world world stage defending a specific theater of doubt as a collective soul serving humanity 7 days a week.
do you see I describe every ancestor of this species not singling you apart from anyone else lived or alive, no exceptions since I was nurtured to serve humanity just like you and my own ancestry was.
All those secrets only leaderships knew..