Murdock'sMom » 24 Sep 2025, 12:24 pm » wrote: ↑
I believed with all my heart that conceiving a child through an anonymous negro donor was a great idea. I thought the strongest sperm would make the journey, so the longer the line of black fellas, the better.
Even though I was booze dependent during the pregnancy, I cut way back on my drinking to give Murdy-poo a chance. I was drinking just enough to avoid DTs, because I felt DTs might harm the little bun in my oven. So, four shots of liquor was my daily limit, which I rarely surpassed.
I raised him in a dress until he was school age, because they were so much easier to get from churches and thrift stores. But as soon as my Murdy started school, I found him some jeans and even a few boy shirts to intersperse with his blouses and tank tops.
He had a lot of sexual issues at a young age - mainly diddling any of the few boys whose parents allowed them to come to our home.
I caught him talking another young man - a black fella - into something he referred to as "plating." It wasn't pretty, and it didn't smell good.
Do I feel any responsibility for what a sewer rat my son grew up to be? Frankly, no. I did everything I could to assure good genetics. I cut way back on my drinking. He always had clean dresses and blouses. I was a darned good mom, in my opinion. I have no idea why he turned out the way he did.